An open letter of a #hopeless #romantic


dear cupid,

Its been a while since i last sent you a letter.  I may have been traumatized with the last guy you sent me.  Yup its true, its a whirlwind romance but he threw me in a loop and now i don’t know if ill ever recover.

I’m not choosy, just to lay my cards straight.  it just so happen that i’m trying to find a chemistry to the next fellow who sends SMS / IM or message but the pizzas is simply not there.  Plus, im bottom and i’m trying to find the next eligible TOP but they are too low in numbers.  Some pretend they are TOP but low and behold – lies of all lies, they are “FREAKINLY BOTTOM”.  I don’t think that we can spell “happy ever after” if we both were looking for TOP.  I guess this house can only accommodate ONE BOTTOM and that’s me.

true… i admit Mr. Cupid.  IM AFRAID!

my friends often wonder, why?

there’s no harm being single.  as for me, the last time i had a serious relationship was… ( thinking… i forgot na).  Just like what Jack of Will and Grace often said “if you have to think for at least 3 seconds then that’s too long ago”

admittedly… i am terrified.  I hate the fact of opening myself to another person and he wont reciprocate my feelings.  I’m horrified of the things i’m about to feel and at the end of the line – he will end up leaving me just like my last serious relationship.  I’m mortified by the fact that i am not good enough; not well endowed enough; not hunkier  that the other guy in PR or gorgeous than that fellow in Facebook.

honestly, i don’t know how to choose the right guy.  I just let destiny fill in the gap but i don’t think that she is helping me as well.

I just hoped that he would start knocking on my door … uttering “hey just saw you downstairs, i just cant help but wonder if i can get you number…”

But then again, this is the Philippines and i’mnot living in Florida or San Francisco where gays are far more forward with their feelings.  Am i doomed Mr. Cupid… or will i just take care of 9 cats and play solitaire till i finally close my eyes … FOREVER.

Mortified and horrified with my future… but i guess, i would be the last single gay guy in Valenzuela.

Yours truly,

AJ

 

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