#rain is just #confetti from the sky


There are two ways to look on a coin and that depends on whether you would like to see the most obvious reason rather than to see what is beyond it. I fully respect everyone’s opinion and people may see it differently. I like to see the #positivevibes of a situation and use this as my platform for an#awesomeday . People would say that I’m 🥜 and I full understand why but their opinion is not important. What is important to me is how perceive a bad situation and turn it as a beacon positivity.

#openletter to #mama


May 22 2018. It’s your Nth birthday. Honestly I stop counting your age and the years when you finally say #goodbye. But I won’t forget your birthday until the day when I say “Hi Ma, kumusta?”

I stop myself in writing melodramatic messages yesterday, knowing that there are no #instagram, #facebook or any social media sites in heaven. It’s crazy, you can’t even read it so why bother. Instead, I kept myself busy. Trying to get through the day. But my plan is a huge #failure. Cause here I am, writing messages that you won’t be able to read.

I miss you Mama. Sobra! I miss talking to you every single day. Sometimes I caught myself counting the days and hours … wishing my day ends and looking forward to see you again. I miss you mama.

You’re the only person I could talk to about my frustrations and aspirations. I could run to whenever I needed a shoulder to cry on. You’re the only person I could be honest with my feelings. The only person who knew me inside out. The world may judge and throw things at me but I kept myself strong enough to keep me sane. Not everyone knew me and it’s a lonely place to live in. Sometimes I kept on thinking that I’m worthless with the things they say behind my back but I guess – this is what I deserve. This is my kind of hell.

Mama… I’m sorry if I had disappointed you in all aspects of my decision making. I know I’m not the son you wish you had. I’m a huge disappointment. I hate the fact that I can’t give you the grandchildren you dreamt of. I can’t even find a partner of my own who can love me of who and what I am. I guess this face .. a face that only mothers could love.

But I tried to be a better person. Even if I can’t face another day, I tried to wake up and fight for my everyday battle. My sister, niece and nephew may need me and I wanted to make sure that I’m strong enough when they run to me. I hide behind the mask. Behind it … I’m also trying to fight my own demons. I need help. I needed someone who could understand me and listen. Just simply listen to me. Mama… when will you knock on my door and bring me with you.

I miss you mama. I bought you a cake. I’ll eat the rest of it and cry in silence

Kevin Spacey is #comingout


Hooray for Sir Kevin Spacey and finally admitting that being “Gay is OK”

It may taken him at least 5 decades before he can finally embrace the powerful rainbow until he pulled out his guts and claimed to live freely. Though your #comingout story may have been worst in gay history as it is clouded by negativity, nevertheless as a #progay advocate- I still applaud your sincerity and the beauty that you left all through out your life and career

#halimawsabanga : one horror flick I can’t forget


My ever beloved friendship Raven reenacts his all-time favorite 1986 monster hit flick Halimaw Sa Banga (“monster in a jar” as directed by master director Mario O’ Hara). The Mother of all Pinoy monsters, Halimaw sa Banga have changed the way we look at antique jars. The film traumatized a lot of Pinoy kids the way “Freddie Krueger” and “Chuckie” of Child’s Play did to American audience.

Filipiknow.net wrote “The monster was actually an ancient witch who was killed, cursed and trapped inside the large jar a long time ago. From then on, every curious people who looks down inside the jar gets served as the monster’s dinner. Halimaw sa Banga is actually an episode of the two-part Halimaw film which won 3rd Best Picture award at MMFF. But thanks to its authentic scare tactics, this pale monster made it to Pinoy horror’s hall of fame (at least according to its trembling fans).

Goodbye Bruno #alldogsgotoheaven


Dear #Bruno

Thank you for 12 years of #truefriendship and #unconditionallove . I can still remember when I met you.

#2005, i decided not to adopt another dog because #lettinggo is one issue that I have problems to deal with. You’re in a box, in a living room destined to leave in a few hours for your adopted family. You’re making noises so I have to go down and try to pacify you.

Then i finally looked through your eyes… okay, I’m done with my feelings and adopt you instead. One phone call, playing the guilt trip because “it’s my birthday” and a promise that I will take care of you till #eternity does the trick. You’re all mine.

It’s like #loveatfirstsight . Since then, you’re my confidant and my #onetruefriend.

12 years and you never left my side. Sometimes I scolded you of ruining my shoes but you came back running and kissing me.

You’re not polished, a local breed but I love you like a family. I hope you’ll be my guardian angel and … please accompany mama and papa so when my time comes, you’ll be there to welcome me.

#thirtynine


39. My new favorite number.

I never had an issue about my age. In fact I embrace it and never hide the fact that I’m getting a year older. Its like your favorite excuse for everything like asking for a seat from another senior in MRT. If I was given a chance to exchange every year with youth and beauty… I would gladly say “pass” for the opportunity. #wisdom over #vanity.

I seldom visit the church. But everyday, I say a little prayer. Being grateful that I had another day, another chance to mend my ways. Looking back on those years, I like what I become. It may not be what I dream of becoming but it’s not a bad plan B anyway. I guess when we started this journey, we set up a map on how to become on what we would like to be. But when we started to drive, a few bumps and life decisions has to be made – ultimately a choice between what is bad and not so bad. We arrive on each station a little different until we throw out the map and just glide through life.

#sentimental #life101 #lifejourney #birthdayboy #lifeasiknowit #livelovelaugh #inspire #inspirationalquotes #lifeasitis #inspiration