39. My new favorite number.

I never had an issue about my age. In fact I embrace it and never hide the fact that I’m getting a year older. Its like your favorite excuse for everything like asking for a seat from another senior in MRT. If I was given a chance to exchange every year with youth and beauty… I would gladly say “pass” for the opportunity. #wisdom over #vanity.

I seldom visit the church. But everyday, I say a little prayer. Being grateful that I had another day, another chance to mend my ways. Looking back on those years, I like what I become. It may not be what I dream of becoming but it’s not a bad plan B anyway. I guess when we started this journey, we set up a map on how to become on what we would like to be. But when we started to drive, a few bumps and life decisions has to be made – ultimately a choice between what is bad and not so bad. We arrive on each station a little different until we throw out the map and just glide through life.

#sentimental #life101 #lifejourney #birthdayboy #lifeasiknowit #livelovelaugh #inspire #inspirationalquotes #lifeasitis #inspiration

I got #mail

I got a private message from one of the indie actors that I once featured on my blog.  He was asking if I could delete all of his pictures I tagged on my blog.  He did properly introduced him self as Will Sandejas.  His message found below:

I did responded and uttered “you know for a fact that i’m not the only one who featured you on their blogs..”

He politely answered “oo nga po eh…” and said “ iniisa isa ko na nga po sila”

I just finished editing 6 posts that shows his pictures and a post that I kept private.  I fully understand his dilemma but we are on a cyberage of what you may have done in the past may no longer be deleted.  Deep in my heart, I hope for the best – for Will’s family, friends and his inner peace.

 –        Think of Aj

a jar of #GoodVibes for #2014

Its that time of year again that you sit down and write a list of  your New Years Resolution.

I bet every year that list is getting shorter and shorter.  Why?  You simply cant follow the damn list anyway until your all too tired of writing the freakin’ do’s and dont’s and you find yourself snuggling that bottle of beer – frustrated and feeling awful for yourself.  “why am i an awful person…. oh why” – i bet you were asking that after 6 bottles of beer.  Don’t worry, i can relate!

One of my FB friends posted in her newsfeed a bottle of  Good Vibes.  She may have created this last year but i guess its an awful good idea in replacement of “Schindlers list”.  All you got to do is get that empty bottle and fill it up with small notes that may have happened to you during the day and at the end of the year, you get to open it up and literally “count your blessing”.  Take note: you would only include surprised gifts, accomplished goals, the beauty of nature, you “LOL” moments, memories worth saving and your daily blessings.  None of those “cry out” moments that you love to post on you FB status.

I have my own version in FB.  ill create an album for Good Vibes since i’m always online and i’m one of those kids who loves to post pictures.  But either way, it will still be the same end result – “count your blessings instead of the jumping sheeps who went over the fence of your homophobic neighbor … and i bet your ass that you’ll feel a lil bit lighter!!!

Share this post to your blogs and your friends.  “Pay it forward” as they say and get this “good vibes idea” go viral… just don’t forget to leave your comments on the box below on how you felt when you started this project!  Thanks and Happy New Year!

#2014: Year of the #Horse


Next week, we will all be greeting “hello 2014” and “goodbye 2013”.  And like any lads and lasses, we google our way to know thy fate for the coming year.  Since i was born in the “Year of the Horse”, here’s what i have read so far.  Thank you to http://www.travelchinaguide.com/intro/social_customs/zodiac/horse.htm


Fortune Foretelling in 2014

Overview: It is their order to encounter the Year of Birth (Benming Nian), a year to offend “Taisui’, the god in charge of people’s fortune. In 2014, their fortune in all aspects will be fluctuant which requires their great cares. They may stress out, in which case they are suggested to self-adjust by talking more to others or taking part in group activities. Upon any difficulties, they should be strong to overcome them all. If they treat people around friendly and behave righteously, they will smoothly get through the year.

Career: Horse people are easily offended this year even for trifles, and seem not to keep a harmonious relationship with colleagues. Sometimes they doubt themselves too much, gradually short of confidence. When finishing a task, they ask people around to confirm again and again. In this case, it is suggested to be confident and talk more to family instead of complaining to colleagues. Just keep a low profile, get along well with boss and be careful of tricks by mean people and then they will make some achievements in job.

Wealth: Their financial fortune will be unstable in 2014. It seems that there will be much unexpected cost. Thus to make ends meet comes first When managing money matters, they should consider accepting others’ suggestion. It is necessary to be careful to make any investment. Businesspeople should make a full scheme before making a large amount of investment, because the market will be changeable in the year.

Relationships: The fortune in love life for horse people will be just so-so. If they would like to get married in the year, it is strongly suggested to select an auspicious date according to the dates of birth of the bride and the bridegroom, or they will suffer a lot in marriage. Singles may meet several people that they have feelings for, but none of them are doomed to be their Mr./Ms. Right. If standing in dilemma, they’d better refer to the idea or suggestion of their relatives and friends. Husband and wife will argue a lot in the year, to avoid which communication and mutual understanding weighs. For all lovers, mutual trust is the secret for an everlasting relationship.

Health: As they offend “Taisui” this year, they may suffer some discomforts. Some insidious diseases like dermatosis may happen. To avoid that, they’d better have a full physical examination. Besides, they also need to be careful to avoid unexpected injuries by knives and others sharp items. Females should pay attention to problem in urinary system and males need to care more about their stomach. Adjusting their emotions and traveling outside will help with their health as well. They also need to remember not to eat too much for each meal.

of #profiles and #gaymen


i was browsing PR earlier until i bump into this profile.  Its kinda long but its funny in a sense since there is a tinge of truth on he had written … OK as in nakana and swak sa banga ang description nya.  So i opted to copy and share it with you..

Some of the bullets that was presented, i admit – nabiktima na rin ako lalo na yung mga trade pics.  Kaya i stopped asking and trading pictures.  Anyway what you see on my profile are my real pictures.  Kaya di nyo man bet ang pagmumukha ko, wapakels dahil sabi ng nanay ko – ako pa rin ang pinaka-cute sa kanya and yun lang ang pinakamahalaga sa akin!


In this stupid fucking BI world.  Everybody has it’s own preferences and standards.  Yung iba sinasabi na good looking DAW sila, pero putangina, hindi naman pala..

Yung iba “Not into sex” daw, pero puro tite at pwet ang nasa pictures nila (Ina nyo !!!)..

Yung iba ang hanap cute at pogi,, pero pagtiningnan mo naman, di naman din kagwapuhan. (kapal ng mukha nyeta)..

Yung iba “No facepic, no reply” pero kapag nagsend ka ng facepic mo at hiningi mo yun sa kanya,,Sorry dude wala ko picture dito, pero I assure you good looking at gwapo ko sa personal” (pakyu mo, laos na yan uwi ka nalang)..

Merong iba. hindi daw naghahanap ng may itsura na BF, basta lang mabait at honest, eh nung may nagchat na mabait na panget, dinaig pa yung “NO PIC NO REPLY”, deadma daw ba. (yung totoo? gaguhan tayo dito?)

May iba nakalagay sa profile nila “Leave me a FOOTPRINT” o kaya kapag nakachat sasabihin nila “i-FOOTPRINT mo naman ako”. (padamihan ba ng footprint para sumikat,, punta ka showtime, baka don, its your time to shine)

Yung iba hinihingi kagad number mo na parang magkakilala kayo (loadan mo nalang ako, natuwa pa ko sayo)

Yung iba MANYAK, (lagi naman tangina, ano bago??)

Yung iba “No to chubs and Effems” pero pagnakita mo naman yung facepic nya, parang BAKLANG JEJEMON, na pinipilit MAGPAKALALAKE sa picture.. (yung totoo?)

Yung iba serious relationship ang hanap, kase kakabreak lang DAW nila ng 1week nyang BF. (dafuq, mangulekta ba ng lalake??)

Yung iba NSA fun lang daw dahil may GF sya, eh nag GF ka pa Tite rin pala hanap mo? (bakit di mo nalang lagyan ng dildo yung GF mo para kahit papano may na ch*–ch*pa ka, tangina ka)

Yung iba, habang ka chat mo, biglang tatanungin “Ilan na na meet mo dito sa PR?” (bakit mo tinatanong?, Census ba to? tangina, eh kung sabihin ko sayong 1000, so lahat yon expected mo nakasex ko?)

Yung iba, biglang magcha-chat “Anong hanap mo?”, “bro, dude, tropa, PARE, TOL ano hanap mo dito?” 
(PARE ?!!, TOL ?!!, kala mo mga lalakeng lalake ah,, bakit si Dora ka ba tangina mo ka.. tutulungan mo ba kong maghanap?, Nanay ko nawawala pakyu mo)

Yung iba, nilagay mo na nga sa Online status mo, “Not into sex, masseurs back-off” magcha-chat padin ang mga putang ina (nag kinder kaba?? bakit hindi ka marunong magbasa, tangahan ba tayo dito, tang ina mo)

Yung iba naman sasabihin “trade pic tayo facepic “, tpos pagnagsend ka ng sayo at hihingin mo na yung sa kanila, di na magrereply (aba putangina, kala ko ba TRADE pics? alam mo yung TRADE, oh punong puno ng tite yang utak mo kaya hindi mo na alam?)

iba’t iba tao, iba’t iba rin ang gusto,, Di marunong makuntento, kaya pakyu sa inyo 😀

( Lahat ng nakasulat dito, ay base sa mga profile ng ibang tao dito kapag nagbr-browse ako at base narin sa mga experiences ko sa pakikipag-usap sa mga tao dito )

PS: Di nman sa galit ako or bitter o kung anong ka putanginahan man ang maisip nyo, basta ako, shinishare ko lang kung ano ang mga ugali ng halos mga tao dito…..

tula para kaya Chito

Ohh Chito

Ohhhhh wooohh Chito

Pang matinee idol ang boses mo

Kahit porma mo ay pang kanto


Pagdating sa boses kong sintonado

Binibirit kanta mong tiyak na panalo

Inspirasyon nang sawing puso

Pang resbak ng kaluluwang natalo


Pero sana kahit minsan

Bigyang halaga ang atensyong nakukuha

Dahil ang sa aming paghanga

Walang parokya kung walang tagahanga


Ngunit ano ito

Kumakalat mong video

Alam mong isa kang HERO

Sa mata nang tao


Walang problema kung i-video mo

Pagtatalik nyo ng syota mo

Bebot mo naman siya, di tulad ni hayden kho

Pero sana tinago mo.


Kung pwede, kinandado mo.


Ang sabi… siya raw ay i-respeto
Nagkakamali rin ‘pagkat tao

Sa aming mundo
Ikaw ay isang idolo
Para kang santo .. bro

Bakit naman kasi kailangan mo pang i-video

Sana tinago mo


Saying chito

Sayang na sayang talaga chito

Hanggang kanta na lang siguro

Ang pag-idolo ko sa yo


young gay guys: shame on you!

Sometimes… it’s just funny na tayu tayu na lang mga bading eh nagkakahiyaan pa or worst kung anu anu pa ang iniisip natin sa kapwa bading.

I don’t know why pero siguro its our upbringing right from the start.  We are a bit hesitant with our feelings since being gay in a masochist society is taboo.  We are often kicked on the sidelines and thought to suppress our feelings kaya the moment na makawala tayu from the wooden closets, we have a different idea sa mundong ginagalawan natin.

Like this guy from work.  We both have an account sa planetromeo.com.  I won’t be a hypocrite but I do have an account on this gay social site.  Anong masama dun?  I think it’s feasible and practical in meeting gay guys around metropolis minus the drama of a broken heart if the guy does not actually like you at all on the first place.  Just imagine the agony of being rejected right on your first date.  I should know since wala naming mga ganitong sites nang dalaginding pa ako.  Kaya nga ng nauso ang guys4men.com ay sobrang nag-fiesta ang mga kabadingan dito sa Pinas dahil sa wakas nadinig rin ang mga pag-nonovena naming sa simbahan ng Quiapo.  Faster and easier way to connect ika nga.  I’m not ashamed that I had an account on the site since I met a lot of fabulous guys and garnered generous friends as well.  Until they close and gave their contents to planetromeo.com

It’s not the same as compared to guys4men.  They don’t have any chatroom with common interest and the guys seemed so cold at times.  They brush you off the moment that they saw your picture.  I can’t blame them since there is no way for them to know me since there is no venue to write your thoughts that a regular chat room can do.

Going back to this guy sa work… so the moment I saw his picture, I instantly send him a message.  I told him that I knew him and asked where he lives since he is about 2.5KM from me lang naman.  Plus his profile said that he lives in Valenzuela.  I swear I just wanted to make friends but instead, what he did is he instantly logged out without responding.  WTF?!!!?

On the next day, I saw him at work and I’ll bet my pouty ass – he saw me.  I was smiling at him but what he did is he totally dismisses my cordial smile and biglang bawi ng tingin.  I mean… why?!!!?

I’m not even totally interested.  I just want to make friends but he inadvertently, took it a different way.  Come on… why do we do these things to ourselves.  Are you ashamed since I saw you red handed carrying an account on a gay social network?  Or you may have this notion na I have a crush on you?  Give me a break.  The world does not revolve on you.  If I do have a ‘thing’ for you, I would have asked your cell number right from the start!

Young gay guys live in a bubble na kesyo nag message or ngumiti sa kanila eh may crush kaagad sa kanila or ‘he-wants-me-in-bed-kinda-tingin’.  Don’t over assume na ito kaagad ang hangad nang mga medyo mas may edad na bading.  Madalas inuunawa ka na lang namin dahil hindi nabibili ang maturity sa BENCH.  You just got to get yourself and tap your feet on the ground dahil baka nahihibang ka na!  SHAME ON YOU!

mean gays

yes… i am signed in with http://www.planetromeo.com.  Im not even ashamed of it since there are no other venues i can find gay guys all in one place.  It may have been somewhere in cyberspace but at least i don,t need to play “IS-HE-IS-HE -NOT” which is somehow so dead tiring at times.  I guess i’m on that stage that asking your sexuality is just like asking what is your favorite color.  there is no need to pretend and hide who am i.  I wont pretend that i hold the TOP position if i’m really comfortable at the BOTTOM.  i’m not pretentious and i wont budge in to any stereotypical notion that normally straight guys think about me.

Yes, i scream sometime like any straight girls when they feel excited.  i don’t wear make-up but i have my own powder foundation and keeps a concealer on my pocket.  i love men perfumes and i don’t wear girls dress for work. but needless to say, with the agony of everyday life on how straight guys think about us, its so disappointing that even gays alike are so mean to each other.

take for example their profiles at planetromeo which is found below:

** looking for someone who i can hang out with. message me with your number, ill contact you if im interested 

AJsays: wow… “will contact if interested” kawawa naman yung nagmessage.  baka abutin ng isang taon bago ka magka-interes.  why don’t you just respond to that guy na ‘pwede friends na lang tayo’.  i mean, why keep someone hanging in mid air and letting that person drift with its fantasies while you on the other hand has no plans on even responding.  we need to move on somehow and responding to a simple message is the key.  huwag kang magpa-asa sa wala at baka bumalik sayu


** ANTIPOLO TONYT .. bosay ( 07 -27 – 2013) ang gwapo mo nman ang macho pa .. ee may utak kaba??!un lang! nako bawal patanga tanga! hehe .. Penge jowa . maginoo pero meju Bastos .. LOLJK just bbm me .. pin:2**@%$65 or send an sms .. 09********16 .. 

AJsays:  goodness gracious!! ikaw na ang matalino iho.  maybe you should go ask your mother to teach you some manners!


** Bawal effeminate kung relationship ang habol mo sa akin. Kung tropa lang, dapat discreet pa rin at astigin. Kung WALA kang picture, please back off!! Mag mayabang ka kung gwapo ka. Salamat. 

AJsays: with this type of attitude… sino ang mas mayabang sa inyong dalawa.  the gay international flag represents the color of the rainbow.  it means that though we are different from one another – trans, butch, silahista, bi etc – we are united!  so who the hell are you discriminating effeminate guys.  baka mas lalaki pa sayu yung mga dinidiscriminate mo.  or better yet, mas may itsura at mas may pinagaralan pa sayu.  Youll never know baka may sarili na rin siyang bahay and he doesnt have to rely on his parents for money.  Baka nga mas malakas ka pang tumili pag nakakita ka ng ipis na lumilipad.


**lives in sampaloc,studying within U-belt area 🙂 MASSEURS/ESCORTS… PLEASE STOP MESSAGING ME, IM NOT INTERESTED 

AJsays:  then why the hell are you keeping an account for planetromeo if you dont want to entertain messages.  feeling celebrity lang ang peg???


**im here just to gather a friend or found a partner who knows the meaning of BUDDY/PARTNER. SEX is not my hobbies so don’t ever ask me, what is my trip and never invite me for that particular things, mssyng lng tym nyo s akin s gnyang bagay 

AJsays: well if that is the case change your profile picture instead.  show some pictures that your all dressed up and not something that you are half naked.  You better brush up your grammar as well so you’ll know when and when not to use “S”

Its funny how we interact to each other.  how we post such things against another gay guy.  I know FB and google is littered with hunk-a-licious guys whom you fantasize at times.  we are literally bombarded of ‘almost perfect’ men that we use this as a gauge in finding our ‘happy ever after’.  but life is filled with choices and we are not perfect with shiny set of teeth.  we vary on sizes … and height but it does not mean if your a five incher, your no longer good in bed.  it does not follow how you perform though your an inch smaller than him.  he may have a 6 pack abs but does he have a personality like yours – as vibrant and colorful than a rainbow sky.

this blogger is guilty in posting gorgeous men.  posting demi-god hunks which is almost perfect.  celebrities with their half-naked photos.  but that’s my aesthetic nature talking.  I know how to appreciate beauty and recognize with their hard work.  but relationship are different.  this is your actual interaction with another human being – on how we respond on certain things and acknowledge the fact that someone from somewhere read your profile or gazed at your photos who manages to pull an ounce of courage from their pocket sending you a simple message … ” HI! “.  You don’t dismiss the fact that he did sent you a message. acknowledge it by responding.  it does not matter if he is effeminate than you or he is wearing pink trousers with skimpy top.  what is important is his honesty to himself and to you.  he never uses someone else’s picture and pretend that he is a TOP.  what matters most is he approach you as another human being.  i just hope that someday, we will find our difference and accept it as it is.

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