May 22 2018. It’s your Nth birthday. Honestly I stop counting your age and the years when you finally say #goodbye. But I won’t forget your birthday until the day when I say “Hi Ma, kumusta?”
I stop myself in writing melodramatic messages yesterday, knowing that there are no #instagram, #facebook or any social media sites in heaven. It’s crazy, you can’t even read it so why bother. Instead, I kept myself busy. Trying to get through the day. But my plan is a huge #failure. Cause here I am, writing messages that you won’t be able to read.
I miss you Mama. Sobra! I miss talking to you every single day. Sometimes I caught myself counting the days and hours … wishing my day ends and looking forward to see you again. I miss you mama.
You’re the only person I could talk to about my frustrations and aspirations. I could run to whenever I needed a shoulder to cry on. You’re the only person I could be honest with my feelings. The only person who knew me inside out. The world may judge and throw things at me but I kept myself strong enough to keep me sane. Not everyone knew me and it’s a lonely place to live in. Sometimes I kept on thinking that I’m worthless with the things they say behind my back but I guess – this is what I deserve. This is my kind of hell.
Mama… I’m sorry if I had disappointed you in all aspects of my decision making. I know I’m not the son you wish you had. I’m a huge disappointment. I hate the fact that I can’t give you the grandchildren you dreamt of. I can’t even find a partner of my own who can love me of who and what I am. I guess this face .. a face that only mothers could love.
But I tried to be a better person. Even if I can’t face another day, I tried to wake up and fight for my everyday battle. My sister, niece and nephew may need me and I wanted to make sure that I’m strong enough when they run to me. I hide behind the mask. Behind it … I’m also trying to fight my own demons. I need help. I needed someone who could understand me and listen. Just simply listen to me. Mama… when will you knock on my door and bring me with you.
I miss you mama. I bought you a cake. I’ll eat the rest of it and cry in silence
Hooray for Sir Kevin Spacey and finally admitting that being “Gay is OK”
It may taken him at least 5 decades before he can finally embrace the powerful rainbow until he pulled out his guts and claimed to live freely. Though your #comingout story may have been worst in gay history as it is clouded by negativity, nevertheless as a #progay advocate- I still applaud your sincerity and the beauty that you left all through out your life and career
I never had an issue about my age. In fact I embrace it and never hide the fact that I’m getting a year older. Its like your favorite excuse for everything like asking for a seat from another senior in MRT. If I was given a chance to exchange every year with youth and beauty… I would gladly say “pass” for the opportunity. #wisdom over #vanity.
I seldom visit the church. But everyday, I say a little prayer. Being grateful that I had another day, another chance to mend my ways. Looking back on those years, I like what I become. It may not be what I dream of becoming but it’s not a bad plan B anyway. I guess when we started this journey, we set up a map on how to become on what we would like to be. But when we started to drive, a few bumps and life decisions has to be made – ultimately a choice between what is bad and not so bad. We arrive on each station a little different until we throw out the map and just glide through life.
Why do we celebrate #pridemonth ?
Hit back by asking “straight people should be thankful they don’t need one”. The #pride month roots back from the oppressive Civil Rights Movement. There were “Annual Reminder” marches as early as 1965, which were meant to be a public reminder that the #LGBT community didn’t enjoy the same basic civil rights as other people. But the watershed moment of the modern pride movement is widely considered the #Stonewall Riots. In the 1960s, due to laws prohibiting public sexuality, there were limited options for #queer folk and raids of #gay and #lesbian establishments were common.
During 80s and early 90s, the only local gay icon I know is Pacifica Falayfay. Dolphy’s iconic performance has ticked the Filipino gay character as #parlorista with a heart of gold. Though his moving performance has paved the way to bring #LGBTQ issues, there is more to #gaylife aside from what I see in theaters.
I stand strongly to my sexuality and if #millenialpink does not understand our #hugot due to”generation gap”… then let me simply say …
“You won’t enjoy the #liberty to shout out your feelings to the world without the #thunderbeki who fought for you basic rights to #love and #expressyourself . #respect
do you still remember this Hanford billboard in Edsa that features hunk-a-licious
i bet you do especially if your actually working in Makati and the usual mode of local transportation that you use back and forth is the ever-reliable super congested Metro Rail Transit! You’ll never miss it especially if your coming from Guadalupe area and you’r going to North Edsa – it’s at the left hand side part of the river. You will also see his billboard along NLEX. There’s a huge Handford Billboard near Eternal Gardens.
Honestly I don’t like the first wave of their ad campaignwhen they started installing this huge tarpaulin. Its horrifying!! Whoever the photographer or the graphic artist who created the billboard should be FIRED! Or better yet, hang them at Plaza Noli and throw rocks on them for bad taste! It did not give Dennis Trillo any justice at all. He looks like an endorser of “chin chan su” rather than the brief itself. His face is beaming with too much powder that transcends cheap and low quality product. Hanford itself has a bad reputation amongst its target market. I don’t personally buy it since personifies my fathers taste in terms of style and the “kargadors choice” amongst local brands. The style is so stiff, bland and so outdated.
Good thing they started to think on what they had presented with the public. I bet when they hired Dennis Trillo as its latest endorser, they would like get a wider reach and take a portion of Bench target market by pulling the G-strings of the gay market. And so they come up with a better lay-out
we can definitely say that Christmas is just around the corner – the much awaited-season is just 3days from now. And Christmas wont be the same without Santa!! So to remember him and because of the holiday season – i am dedicating this post to the jolly guy in red-suit. But this time, i would rather feature him as a shirtless hunk with red bikini. I hope youll enjoy this “merry” post and dont forget to get some tissues to wipe out those juices!
thats why i never made it to Santa’s Good list! Well, the “naughty” list is fine by me as long i’m with these guys!
We’ve been drooling over this two hunks merged by a phenomenal gay soap opera that finally will bade goodbye to local boob tube as it counts down its final week – the Tom Rodriguez – Dennis Trillo love team that we’ve been gushing for more than 4 months now.
Who would have thought that they will even remain for at least a month and has been extended numerous times due to public clamor? No one knew!
It’s a first in the local telly that a whole country has gone gaga over two straight guys with their gay character at the highly successful soap “My Husbands Lover”. I’m just so happy that these two actors which I adore so much who gambled with their careers to bring in to life the characters of Vincent and Eric has been reaping success since from the start. They had proven that gay characters are no longer a hindrance towards success. Hoping to see Tom and Dennis in the local television and cinema.
It is the final week for “My Husbands Lover”. And I bet the whole gay community are awaiting the conclusion of the great love triangle between Vincent, Lally and Eric.
Who would have thought that a gay-themed soap opera would finally see a day when it will be telecast on a Philippine television wherein Roman Catholic remains the primary religion in a local setting? The country aside from Vatican has remained strong with its core family values and has yet to acknowledge divorce as a “law”. Never in a million years that I would have imagined two guys as main character and lovely young lady as the third wheel. So kudos to its writer/developer Suzette Doctolero and the master director himselfDominic Zapata who brings in to life the saga of three intertwined souls from the web of deceit, love, machismo, society and sexual orientation.
The soap wont be successful as it is without its stellar cast spearheaded by Ms Carla Abellana (as Lally),Dennis Trillo (as Eric) and the phenomenal star Tom Rodriguez (as Vincent) who found new success with its new network (GMA 7).
So again, congratulations to the makers of“My Husbands Lover”.
Who would ever forget Jeff Stryker? I bet for for people who loves porn – Jeff Stryker is the MOST POPULAR pornstar in the 80’s who left a mark among PLU community. Seldom that i follow porn stars since i don’t even remember their names – most especially porn stars from Japan or Korea. But one stand out – at first, i just gaze through the DVD cover and try to recognize his face first before i try to buy it. Until i found out who he is – MASAKI KOH.
He is an OUT & PROUD gay porn star with his long-time partner TIEN TIEN. An advocate of LGBT agenda and never dismisses a fan mail. If ever you watched his videos, i bet you will love him as well as he open up his world and he slides into your senses. What i do like about him, nothing on his moves are scripted and everything are unadulterated. I think that is what a porn star is – though it may have been a few minutes for release but you’ll never ever forget him – and you’ll never get tired of watching him over and over again.
Here are some of his images that would surely mark you senses.