#thirtynine


39. My new favorite number.

I never had an issue about my age. In fact I embrace it and never hide the fact that I’m getting a year older. Its like your favorite excuse for everything like asking for a seat from another senior in MRT. If I was given a chance to exchange every year with youth and beauty… I would gladly say “pass” for the opportunity. #wisdom over #vanity.

I seldom visit the church. But everyday, I say a little prayer. Being grateful that I had another day, another chance to mend my ways. Looking back on those years, I like what I become. It may not be what I dream of becoming but it’s not a bad plan B anyway. I guess when we started this journey, we set up a map on how to become on what we would like to be. But when we started to drive, a few bumps and life decisions has to be made – ultimately a choice between what is bad and not so bad. We arrive on each station a little different until we throw out the map and just glide through life.

#sentimental #life101 #lifejourney #birthdayboy #lifeasiknowit #livelovelaugh #inspire #inspirationalquotes #lifeasitis #inspiration

An open letter of a #hopeless #romantic


dear cupid,

Its been a while since i last sent you a letter.  I may have been traumatized with the last guy you sent me.  Yup its true, its a whirlwind romance but he threw me in a loop and now i don’t know if ill ever recover.

I’m not choosy, just to lay my cards straight.  it just so happen that i’m trying to find a chemistry to the next fellow who sends SMS / IM or message but the pizzas is simply not there.  Plus, im bottom and i’m trying to find the next eligible TOP but they are too low in numbers.  Some pretend they are TOP but low and behold – lies of all lies, they are “FREAKINLY BOTTOM”.  I don’t think that we can spell “happy ever after” if we both were looking for TOP.  I guess this house can only accommodate ONE BOTTOM and that’s me.

true… i admit Mr. Cupid.  IM AFRAID!

my friends often wonder, why?

there’s no harm being single.  as for me, the last time i had a serious relationship was… ( thinking… i forgot na).  Just like what Jack of Will and Grace often said “if you have to think for at least 3 seconds then that’s too long ago”

admittedly… i am terrified.  I hate the fact of opening myself to another person and he wont reciprocate my feelings.  I’m horrified of the things i’m about to feel and at the end of the line – he will end up leaving me just like my last serious relationship.  I’m mortified by the fact that i am not good enough; not well endowed enough; not hunkier  that the other guy in PR or gorgeous than that fellow in Facebook.

honestly, i don’t know how to choose the right guy.  I just let destiny fill in the gap but i don’t think that she is helping me as well.

I just hoped that he would start knocking on my door … uttering “hey just saw you downstairs, i just cant help but wonder if i can get you number…”

But then again, this is the Philippines and i’mnot living in Florida or San Francisco where gays are far more forward with their feelings.  Am i doomed Mr. Cupid… or will i just take care of 9 cats and play solitaire till i finally close my eyes … FOREVER.

Mortified and horrified with my future… but i guess, i would be the last single gay guy in Valenzuela.

Yours truly,

AJ

 

to PIERCE or NOT TO PIERCE?


I GOT A FEELING…

yup, it starts with a FEELING, a hunch or ‘a butterfly on my tummy’ … that today will be the day i kneel down and let my ear pierced. I’m not a huge fun of needles and stuff but i finally made it.


At first, i’m afraid and somehow scared.  I just know how it will hurt and judging from the reactions of the buffed men before me, i finally realized and said…


“It’s NOW or NEEEVEEERRRRR”


so i piik up my long chin and grabbed my balls and cross my fingers.  I GOT PIERCED…. YAAAAAAAAWWWWWSAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

the most heart breaking text messages i have read… (series 4)


“here comes the rain again…falling on my head like a tragedy …. la la larin”

see, i could hum a tune!!!! as a tribute to the rainy season, let me serve the fourth series of text messages that could make you weep and shead a tear or two. scroll down and enjoy….


HANKY 31:

Are we really hurt because we can’t tell the person we love what we really feel? Or are we hurt because at the back of our minds we know that telling the object of our affection what we really feel won’t make any difference


HANKY 32:


People must try to be sensitive…

cause not everyone is strong enough to endure pain.

After all there’s

Sometimes faith has a cruel way of putting things together.


no anesthesia for a broken heart


HANKY 32:


What makes us a fool???

UNCERTAINITY is the biggest torture in love.
they’ll leave you.


When it hurt us to the core seeing the one you love with somebody else, but still, you keep on staring.  


HANKY 33:


A couple were arguing these past few weeks because of another girl.  


The guy then asked the girl out. He offered her 24 red rose and white rose upon fetching her at their house. He brought her to the seashore, there’s a bon fire which was set. They spent the night together singing their favorite songs. They waited and watched for the sunrise


The girl then asked…
‘is this your way of saying im sorry?


The guy replied
‘no … this is my way of saying goodbye’


HANKY 34:

 

You feel jealous yet you can’t complain. You can get hurt yet you can’t show it. You can love with your all yet you can’t say it.

All you can do is watch, keep the pain, enjoy the smiles, hugs and kisses then show how much that person means to you


HANKY 35:


The love you cant have….


Last as the longest


Feels the strongest


And hurts the MOST.


HANKY 36:

From ‘Greys Anatomy’ –

The worst disease in the world isn’t medical… ‘It’s being unwanted, unloved and uncared for.


We can cure physical diseases but
the only cure for despair is love.


There are those who are dying for a piece of bread, but many more

are dying for a piece of love.


HANKY 37:


Akala mo hindi ka niya mahal dahil mas pinili nyang maging magkaibigan na lang kayo….

pero ang hindi mo alam… higit ka niyang mahal

dahil pinili niya kung saan kayo mas magtatagal


HANKY 38:


In this world, it’s hard to tell who’s true and who’s not


People may be good at the beginning and be cruel in the end;


If you are too trusting,
they’ll take advantage of you;


if they know your weak,
they’ll hurt you;

after loving them,


HANKY 38:

 

 

Maybe it’s better if people just give up when there’s no point in fighting for something anymore. When the ship was finally sailed, only a fool would go after it when it’s already miles away.

 

It’s a lot better to be a fool to go after what we want and need, rather than to regret everything in the end because we never even tried.


HANKY 39:

We keep on sticking nto who we like, that’s why we never notice those who like us. Sometimes were dying for someone who doesn’t care, while somebody’s already dead trying to please us…


HANKY 40:


Ang puso parang rubix cube…


may susubok buuin pero susuko din…


may pipilit bumuo pero iiwan din…


pero may taong dadan at aayusin at pag nabuo na…bigla ulit sisirain.

Doctrines of Friendship


our last trip to galera

our last trip to galera 2007 

In a course of a year, how many times did you changed or shop for shoes?  How many times do you change the shirt you will about to wear before your hot date?  Or how many times did you change your boyfriend in a week? 

 

Once…

Twice…

Thrice…

 

In times where ‘convenience’ is the main subject in a fast and trendy lifestyle, isn’t it neat if you could just save something from the past that you dearly adore.  Like an old photograph of your 1st birthday or the first medal y won from a poetry contest.  How about the picture of your first love or the first necklasce you father gave you before he passws away.  This are simple momentos that money cannot buy and no one could take it out from you.

 Just like friendship and the tie that binds.

 I sort of thought of it one morning when I found myself sleeping with a friend of mine who is now based in Kuwait.  I look upon her and smiled. 

 ‘Antagal na rin pala naming magkaibigan ng bruhang ito!   Since high school pa kami nagkakilala at naging magkaibigan officially nang nasa college and since then hindi na kami napaghiwalay kahit milya milya man ang layo naming sa isa’t isa  Tuloy pa rin ang communication at patuloy na hinahanap hanap ang kakulitan and kapilyahan ng isat isa.  Though minsan maldita kami sa ista isa, di mapagkakaila na kulang ang isang araw sa balitaktakan at kuwentong di maubos ubos.  Ilang taon na rin ang nagdaan at sari saring lalaki na rin ang dumaan at naging karelasyon pero eto pa rin kami…magkaibigan.’

 So here I am, as a tribute to friendship and sisterhood, I’m starting a series that is purely dedicated to a long lasting relationship.  Cheers!!!

 

Doctrine 1

It is my friends who made the story of my life.  In a thousand ways they have turned my limitations into beautiful privileges and enabled me to walk serene and happy in the shadow cast by my deprivation.  My friends are my oasis, encouraging me to go on.  They are essential to my well being. Thank you for everything! I could never afford to lose any of you…and definitely not you!

 

Doctrine 2

I waited 9 months to see the world..

1 year to walk..

2 years to talk..

5 years to start studying but I really waited too many years to find a wonderful friend like you

 

Doctrine 3

The moment I give myself a chance to know you, I didn’t get disappointed. Instead I have found myself very lucky to have you as my friend and I hope you would stay beyond forever.

 

Doctrine 4

The biggest blessing in our life is simply the presence of people who care much, whose love is for real and see us much beyond ourselves.

 

Doctrine 5

Without a map i found you. Without a reason, we become friends. 

So if you feel there is no one beside you and everyone doesn’t care..

You’ll see without a clue, a map or a reason…you’ll find me standing next to you.

 

Doctrine 6

I’d rather have a friend who:

1. Slaps me in front of many people than being stabbed at my back.

2. Curses me in front of face than being talked behind me

3. Talks shit and says my faults than being insulted without me even noticing

4.  Leaves me but knows when to come back than being with someone whose mind isn’t with me at all

I want a real friend, the one who can hurt me but will heal the pain. 

Not some fake once, who pretend to be there listening but doesn’t act at all

 

Doctrine 7

Friends are like sunsets, you maybe sharing  with them only a few hours of the day but you know that they will always be there tomorrow, the next day and the day after forever

 

Doctrine 8

Do you know the mark of ‘true friendship’ worth keeping for the rest of your life?

It’s when you become impossible to deal with yet they stay.

 

Doctrine 9

One stone is enough to break a glass

One sentence is enough to break a heart

One second is enough to fall in love and

One friend like you is enough to live a happy life.

 

Doctrine 10

Don’t count your friends on a sunny day when the sky is blue and the laughter is abundant instead wait for a storm when the clouds are dark and scarce.  When someone stands beside you and lifts your spirit to the sky.  Then you’ll know who deserves to be called a friend.

Learning Life 101 (part 6)


herewith is the 6th series of Learning Life 101.  Hoping for your enlightenment!

 LESSON 61

True strength of character is not just calculated by how well we manage to carry some sizable load under challenging situations, but is perhaps better measured by our ability to remain kind and light spirited..

 even when were sure that we cant bear the weight of one more ounce of life…

 

LESSON 62

Why do we have repeated experiences? 

It’s because repeated experiences have one aim: – to teach the thing you refuse to learn.

 

LESSON 63

A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable but more useful than a life spent in doing nothing

 

LESSON 64

Some won’t appreciate what you say or do…

but as long as you speak honestly from the heart and let them see who you really are, you’ll be fine.  This is not a perfect world; this is not a perfect life.  So live life the way you want because no matter what you do, people would never run out of something to say

 

LESSON 65

When you’ve done something wrong, admit it and be sorry

No one has ever choked to death from swallowing his pride.

 

LESSON 66

Life involves a fight, a race and a test.  When things get tough, remember your identity. 

You’re a fighter, you’re a finisher, and you’re a faithful conqueror of GOD

 

LESSON 67

The hardest lessons and problems in life are also the most precious ones… you know why?

They force us to face our weaknesses and fears

But above all, they unleash hidden strengths we never know we had

 

LESSON 68

In my existence, I realized that happiness is a very subjective factor in once life.  Being happy doesn’t depend on achieving what you want, but rather making the best out of what is give.

 

Life isn’t fair, it never was… the only thing that can make you completely happy is contentment.  Be content on what you achieve, but be sure to aim high and never stop believing you can do better every time.  But if all else fails, don’t forget that an ordinary you has an extraordinary GOD to back you up.

 

LESSON 69

Life only becomes meaningful when we live it with purpose, when we survive every trial and anticipate positively every tomorrow with hope and dedication

                                       

LESSON 70

A humble person is like a lighthouse… it doesn’t ring bells nor fire guns to call attention to its luminance…it merely shines.

sizzling jake cuenca – (fffssssttttt!!!!!)


 

 

 

what can i say about jake cuenca???

 

god….im simply speechless. a young actor/model who jumps from one network to another, got a break and finally found fame.  From then on, he doesn’t show any sign of stopping.  from teeny bopper supporting roles to big time primetime series, jake cuenca can finally say ‘I ARRIVED’.

 

no doubt about it, he finally arrived which is evident with his Edsa billboards which plastered his face and body wearing underwear…(via bench underwear ad series) and various endorsement deals.  (i think he had caused a lot of stiff necks by that time his billboards are still in Edsa!!!  hahahaaha…ouch my neck)

 

cuenca simply oozes with sex appeal….his dark gazes and physique that could create shrieks and shrills amongst ladies and gays.  he can simply tease you with his provocative gestures and poses. (just look on the pre-‘palos’ pictures below…yummy).  i still remember the first time i spotted him at gateway mall while shopping.  i bet he was younger by that time but you can almost see the potential…. he is simply a head turner…as everyone couldnt simply miss this hunk.

 

so enjoy the rest of the pictures…. and let jake cuenca sizzle.  enjoy!!!!!