much ado about a VAMPIRE


 

 

The ‘twilight’ bug really hits Manila by storm.  I’m not a huge fan and I just watched the film once in DVD but I’m not yet totally hooked.  One of my colleague even bought the book series last Christmas as she breaks the ‘ole piggy bank’.  Poor piggy bank…

Anyway, these text message were forwarded by a friend of mine who enlist a vampire as his ‘ideal man’…I think something is wrong in this sentence…

 

I hope vampires do really exist… If they do, then I wish I’m in love with one who’s also deeply in love with me. 

 

One who’d be fascinated to watch me sleeping. 

One who doesn’t have the courage to stay away from me.

One who would risk everything just to make me safe again. 

One who would save me not because im his prey but im his life

guidelines in finding TRUE LOVE (part 2)


 

since its the LOVE month, let me share the 2nd series of ‘guidelines in finding TRUE LOVE’.  i hope that you would also enjoy this post as much as you enjoyed the first one.

enjoy and let’s fall in LOVE….

GUIDE 11: 

If we fall in love because someone makes us laugh, what happens when we no longer find them funny? 

If we fall in love because someone beautiful, what happens when that beauty fades? 

If we fall in love because someone can provide for us, what happens when they lose their wealth? 

Because LOVE defies all known reasons. 

When you truly love someone, you can’t just find a reason.

You just do.

 

GUIDE 12: 

If you love someone, never hesitate to show what you feel, just follow your heart.

Never waste your time, never fear, nor doubt, never quit…nor stop.  But never expect in return. 

 

Don’t be afraid to become stupid.  Just love, be real.  You might get hurt, but you must not give up. 

 

Just live your life, love the way you want.  Never get tired.  Stay alive to love. And stay in love to live.  Till you learn to let go, till you learn to set free. And to always stay happy.

 

GUIDE 13:  They say that those relationships which were formed just right after a very short time of courting are untrue and not just.  I say…you don’t have to eat an entire cake just to know if it tastes good

 

GUIDE 14:  We don’t look for love because it’s lonely to be watching movies alone… because its sad to eat meals on your own…because its nice to cuddle up with someone on rainy days.

 

We look for love because we want to be accepted.  For the sloppy way we dress…for the clumsy way we eat our meals, for bad hair days and for simplicity in us. 

 

Love is an act of acceptance, that with all our imperfections, we are accepted and loved

 

GUIDE 15: Always remember that you can never find a perfect partner to love you the way you wanted.  Only a person who’se willing to love you more than what you are.  Someone who’ll accept you for what you can and can’t be and that’s even better than perfect.

 

 

GUIDE 16: The one person who deserves you is the one who will stick by your side no matter how much you mess up and the one who will forgive you…mistake after mistake

 

GUIDE 17:

Love is not everyday ‘cause it will be boring. 

Its not all the candy treats, might give you a sore throat. 

Its not laughter all the time or you’ll get hiccups. 

Mostly love is not all the time, sometimes it’s a diamond. 

Love with everything you will be, with all that you are not.

 

GUIDE 18: You can tell if that person is someone special,

Because no matter what kind of mood you are in

He can always manage to make you smile

 

GUIDE 19: You will NEVER be good enough for everybody…

But this is for sure, you are THE BEST for someone who really appreciate you.

best friend … i love you


 

 

 

 

 

one of my readers from my old blog www.allanworld.i.ph posted who goes by the name,  EARTHY said:

 

 

I can’t believe how perfectly you’ve nailed how I’m feeling right now. I’m in love with my best friend, but he doesn’t love me. And yet I am always there for him whenever he needs me. I just can’t seem to get him out of my life. My friends tell me I need to forget him completely but how do you forget the other half of yourself? How do you pretend that your world isn’t cold and empty without that person in it?

How do you move on?

 

Actually, ilang beses rin naman akong nain-love sa kaibigan.  Based from my previous post, it serves as a living proof of my insane past. Below is just short list of related post.  Feel free to navigate my blog after reading this post.

 

>> THE ART OF CLOSING CHAPTERS

>> of LOVE and FRIENDSHIP…. (here WE go again)

>> a mantra for FRIENDS who fall in love with their BEST FRIENDS…

>> gOODBYE…OLE SAILOR

>> LOVE is CRUEL???

 

its really hard to overcome such feeling.  i mean, ive been there…and i know how hard it is.

 

Parati kayong magkasama at parati niyang binibida yung bagong crush or lover nya. Then iiyak siya dahil iniwanan o kaya ay sinaktan siya…and worst sayo pa hihingi ng payo.  He would gosh over his last nights eye ball and he would give you the blow by blow scenarios that started with a few beers that led to a room in a motel.  Ang masama pa nito, you have to pretend na nasisiyahan or naaliw ka sa mga kwento nya pero sa totoo lang…dumudugo na ng bongang bonga ang puso mo.

 

ITS REALLY HARD. halos iumpog na rin ako ng mga kaibigan ko noon dahil sa kabobohan ko pero ayun pa rin ako….head over heels.  Sari saring payo na rin ang narinig ko from ‘you should learn to move on’ to ‘magkaibigan lang talaga ang tingin nya sa iyo’

 

Ang parati kong sagot sa kanila, ‘sino ba sila at kung ganun ganun na lang kung makapagpayo sila sa akin?’.  Alam ba nila kung ano ang nararamdaman ko ngayon?  Ni sa dulo ng kalingkingan nila, hindi nila alam ang sakit na nararamdaman ko ngayon.

 

Points taken….

 

But the BIG QUESTION is ‘how will you be able to express your affection to a guy na ang tanging tingin nya sayu ay isang kaibigan lang?  Would you be able to face the fact na once you tell him the truth, he would leave you behind?  Would you be able to face the world and move on?  Kaya mo bang masikmura kung ano ang sasabihin nya sayo?  Can you?

 

ARRRRGHHHH! ansakit di ba.

 

there are no easy answer to ‘our’ situation.  ONLY YOU CAN ANSWER YOUR OWN QUESTION.  because it really depends on how you are determined to over come the feeling. 

 

Will you bite the bullet?

Are you ready to face the TRUTH?

 

I have made my decision to finally say my feelings to ‘him’.  I think that was time that I finally admitted that he would never be mine and he belongs to someone else.  I just have to know the truth so I bite the bullet.  Masakit ma-reject because I lost two people when I finally had the strength to tell him that im in love with him – I lost my best friend and my love one.  I think I would rather bleed to death than pass this lifes journey without even knowing what will be the outcome.  I think we all have to hurdle life difficulties to define who we are today.

 

I know the consequences of my action and tangap ko kung anuman ang sasabihin niya.  Eventually, i rely to father time to heal my wounds and forget every sweet memories ive had with him.

 

 

the ART of letting go (part 2)


heres the second series of the ‘THE ART OF LETTING GO’.  thank you readers for your great comments. enjoy the post!

MANTRA 11

Do NOT count what you lost.

Instead cherish what you have and plan what to gain.

The past never returns but the future may fulfill the loss.

MANTRA 12

LAW OF UNATTACHMENT:

Don’t cling to anything that needs to go.

Everything in this world is not permanent.

You just have to love it while you have it

MANTRA 13

Being a quitter doesn’t mean that you are a looser.

Every time you quit doesn’t mean you are giving up.

It only means that you have to let go of what you think is unfair.

MANTRA 14

When you love, never stick only to what your heart feels.

Remember that sometimes, your brain is a necessity.

Next, never use your eyes to cry for the person who hurt you.  Instead use it to search for the right one.

Lastly, don’t be scared breaking upKeeping a relationship without love is just a waste of time.

Take note, love the one who will fight for you and bravely face each and every consequence.  Someone you can call ‘mine’ rather than ‘ideal’.

MANTRA 15

Don’t overuse your heart trying to love the one you think who loves you too. You should save the best part for the person who deserves you and deserves to be loved by you

MANTRA 16

You are the only person responsible for your happiness.

Don’t depend on someone else to experience it for you

MANTRA 17

Sometimes, you just have to put a period on something that has to end and not just settle on a comma….

WHY?

CAUSE TIME WILL COME… you’ll realize that its nicer to see a complete sentence, rather than seeing a phrase, that DOESNT MAKE ANY SENSE

MANTRA 18

NEVER BEG PEOPLE TO STAY AGAINST THEIR WILL…

Sometimes the gift of goodbye opens up another door.  Move on but don’t move away.

MANTRA 19

If we dwell too much on the past, we pass up the chance to change and grow.

Whether we like it or not, it takes an extra effort to allow changes in our lives.

We have to make choices.

We have to make space.

We have to let things go.

We have to let things change

MANTRA 20

When you stumble, pick yourself up!

Never wait for someone to pick and get you back to life.

After all, you were born alone, single and strong.

conversations with a mocking bird


 

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April 6, 2006 – As I stand in the middle of ‘Single Ville’, just trying to breathe the air of ‘freedom’, a silver mocking bird flew over my shoulder.

 

The mocking bird whispers…’would there be a possibility for you to know a person….’

I answered nonchalantly…’sure…I could always be a… friend’

The mocking bird replied ‘how about ‘beyond’ friendship…would you like to give it a try’

 

 

I stood silent.  I am trying to find the right words.  Endless ‘what if’ were jotted down from a little brain of mine.

 

I could just feel my heart quiver… But my brain still stands silent…

 

Sometimes…my heart and brain doesn’t agree on certain degrees but this time…one doesn’t answer…just stood silent.

 

The silver mocking bird again asked ‘hey…what if…just what if…’

 

I replied…’sure…what if’

The mocking bird sings ‘just look at the fellow on the coffee shop…’

 

Its Paul… with his sunshine smile.

 

I fondly call him ‘Papa Bear’ because of his height and huge physique – defined muscles I may add. I always kid around him, running circles. I always take the comfort of holding or hugging him. I sometimes sit on his lap and as if a wee kid who tried to snuggle him, wrapping my arms around his huge shoulders.

 

A charming and silent type of guy who always bestows that ‘sunshine smile’ once you call his name. In fact a very sweet guy, with so many surprises up on his sleeves. Thank you for the ‘Go Nuts Donuts’.

 

The mocking bird winks and asks once again … ‘so…’

 

My heart beats… My brain…still stood silent

 

.. An uncertain phenomenon.

 

I reached out my hand and whispers ‘…there is no harm in trying …let’s see if we could pull it off’

 

I smiled.

 

Lets give it a try… i’m not promising anything but lets see. I’m open to possibilities.

 

To know you more …

 

BUT I just can’t promise anything. As they say there are two sides of a coin…either of the two can write the next chapters of our ‘what if…story’

the art of letting go (part 1)


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one of the painful tragedies in life is the so called

‘break up’, matched by the most awful medicine prescribed by heart doctors – ‘letting go’.

I should know since I’ve seen both sides of the coin and without the help of friends and comrades, I may have been writing this blog in a loony bin.  As time passes, i have collected some quotable quotes or text messages which I would like to share.  Believe me, it might sound corny but these messages may be able to brighten up your cloudy sky.  Read along….

MANTRA 1:

If love becomes painful…

Its time to let that love go and save yourself

You got to keep this in mind ‘you’ll be able to find another love but not another self’

MANTRA 2:

In life you will realize that the people you meet have a purpose.

Some were put there to test you…

some would use you (and I learned this the hard way…jeeezzz)

some would teach you

some would bring out the better if not the best in you.

Some may even cause you pain and heartache

BUT one must learn to move on…

so let go of the people who can’t treat you right and hold on to those who love your back and see your worth.

MANTRA 3:

You can never find rest until you finally let go of the hatred that fits your heart

MANTRA 4:

‘I’m starting to learn.

You can’t make someone love you.

You can’t make someone be faithful to you.

You can’t control your own faith sometimes.

Things happen: good, bad, indifferent.

You just have to let some things go and hope for the best

MANTRA 5:

Love is neither about judging nor being a perfectionist.

Loveis about accepting, understanding and self sacrificing and most of all,

Love is supposed to make you happy, dear….

not stupid!

MANTRA 6:

The best part of being in love is when you just love a person and be happy about it.

Even if that person can never be yours, even if you know that it can lasts forever!

That’s the true essence of love.

It’s not about winning someone.

It’s not about owning a relationship.

It’s just about being happy because you know you’ve loved someone.

It’s about being guiltless because you know you didn’t take away someone from anybody.

You just love and love unselfishly.

MANTRA 7:

If an angel and devil were to fall in love with each other…

Can there be love with each other?

Can their love transcend the law of heaven and hell?

Can the angel set her wings on fire?

Can the devil soar at the day light?

This is faith’s decree

MANTRA 8:

Love can’t change what aren’t meant to be

MANTRA 9:

Kapag niloloko ka na at madalas pinagmumukha kang tanga at bukod sayo ay meron pang iba?

Kahit mahal mo siya dapat ng iwan.

Stop torturing yourself dahil wala pang medalya para sa TANGA!

MANTRA 10:

It doesn’t make you less of  a person if you don’t belong to somebody, but don’t get so caught up and stick with someone and fail to get to know  and meet others.

You don’t need to have them to feel good about yourself.